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Saturday, August 14, 2010

It's over.

They've decided to parent. 

72 comments:

Maria said...

Oh Lauren...I am so sorry.

Call me. Do you want to come over? Can I come be with you? Is there anything at all I can do?

Beth said...

Lauren I'm so sorry. Prayers and tears for you.

Megan said...

Lauren, I am crying for you and my heart is breaking. I am lifting you up in prayer right now.

Erika said...

I am crying for you right now Lauren. I wish I could give you a hug.

Anonymous said...

My heart is broken for you. My stomach turned when I read this. I'll be thinking of you and praying for you.
Marisa

Leila@LittleCatholicBubble said...

I feel sick to my stomach. I am without words. I am so sorry....

Debbie LaChance said...

Oh Lauren...I have no words to express how sorry I am. I am praying for you and Jaris today and the days to come.
I felt sick of my stomach when I read your message.
We all wish you peace and love sweetie.

A. Deb

mrsblondies said...

I'm so sorry. Praying for you.

Rebecca Frech said...

I am so, so sorry.

Chasing said...

ohmygosh I am so sorry. This is terribly sad. You have been so faithful through this whole thing. I was so hoping for your happy ending.

Blessed and Broken said...

omg. I am so sorry. SO sorry.

Karey said...

Oh dear Lauren. Words cannot express my sorrow for you. So many are lifting you up in prayer right now.

LifeHopes said...

My heart is breaking over here for you.

It just seemed so clear that adoption was the best thing in this situation ... none of this makes any sense. I wish I could fix it for you. I am so, so sorry. I have been praying all morning, and will continue to lift you and this entire situation up in prayer.

Jennifer said...

I don't even know what to say. I am broken hearted. Relying on the Holy Spirit to intercede with groans words can't express.

We will serve the LORD said...

Ugggggggggggh. i just can't believe it.

We will serve the LORD said...

Thank you for keeping us posted. It must be so hard to talk about. Thank you for thinking of all of us.

Anonymous said...

Lauren, I truly believe that your and Jaris' love for children reminds these birth parents of what a precious blessing they have. That your reflection of Christ's love inspires them. My prayers are with all involved. May your resilience carry you to not give up until you have a child safely in your arms. This birth mom has needed you in some ways....needed God. She still does. Love and hugs to you both. Brandy

Anonymous said...

Damn

brauntown said...

Today is the feast of St. Maximilian Kolbe, martyr of love. May he intercede for you.

More Than Anything said...

I'm so sorry.

Mama Bear said...

I am shocked, sickened, tearstained, and heartbroken for you guys!!!!!! I cannot imagine how this feels, but as hurt as I am by it I multiply that times a million and might get close! As much as we were lifting you up in prayer before, we will do so all the more! If you need to get away our home is a long ways away and always open!! Oh my sweet friend! Words aren't enough!

Little JoAnn said...

I am so sorry. This is such a terrible loss. You are my prayers all weekend.

Kelly said...

My heart breaks for you. I am so sorry. My adoration hour tomorrow will be for you.

Claire said...

I am so sorry. Words cannot express what I am feeling as I read your words. May our Lord and his mother hold you tight in their arms and bring comfort in this challenging time.

Julie said...

The pain is unbearable. I have been on this road before a few times over the past 9 years of our marriage. We have struggled with infertility and failed adoptions for so long that I told God, our social worker and my husband in March that "I am done...I am done waiting...I am done hoping for a baby that will never come...I am just done...I want to have a hyserectomy right now so I don't have to hope for a baby that is never going to come" Well, the social worker and my husband and I had the most amazing talk and God opened my eyes to His path for us. You can check out my blog at andrewandjuliesadoptionstory.blogspot.com if you want to see what God had in store for us. I pray that God will hold you in His hands because I know that you cannot make it on your own.

Anonymous said...

love, hugs, and prayers Lauren. I am so sorry.

Amanda

Cathy said...

Holding you in my prayers.

I'm so, so sorry, Lauren.

LeAnn said...

keeping you in our prayers, today and always

... said...

I can't believe this has happened. I am so sorry.

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C. said...

I'm so, so sorry this is happening. You will continue to be in my prayers.

Heidi said...

I will keep you in my prayers.

Jenny said...

My heart is breaking for you. Many many prayers for you.

60 toes said...

NOOOOOOO.

I feel sick to my stomach. I can't even fathom what you are going through. We are praying. Please know that.

Love you sweet friend. I am so sorry.

Kaitlin @ More Like Mary said...

I have no words. Lauren, I'm so so sorry.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry.

Amber

KZG said...

I have been reading your blog for some time via AYWH and I must say, I am so sorry. May God help you thru this difficult and horrible time. God bless....

Danya @ He Adopted Me First said...

Oh Lauren, my prayers are with your hurting heart. I am soooo sorry. What profound sadness you must be feeling! Your intentions will be with us at mass this weekend. Hang in there sister!

some how, some way, some day said...

I am in tears for you! I wish I could do something for you. Prayers will have to be enough.

Margaret said...

Oh Lauren. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Meg @ True, Good and Beautiful said...

My jaw dropped when I read this. I'm so sorry Lauren. I'll will be praying for you.

Amazing Life said...

oh, I am so sorry. I will be praying for all of you!

matannjess said...

I do not know you personally, but know you through Kim Henry. We are good friends and she was just telling me about the adoption yesterday and I was rejoicing with you. Now I can not imagine the pain. But she also said you are a strong lady who believes in our loving God. All I can say is lean on Him and let yourself grieve. I am grieving with you and praying for strength for your husband and you

Unknown said...

I'm praying for you and your husband.

Elissa said...

My heart breaks for you both. My heart and prayers are with you. I wish I could make things right for you.

Amy @ This Cross I Embrace said...

Oh no. Oh my heart is just breaking for you and your DH... I don't know what to say.

There is no consolation in this moment, but know that with time the pain will be healed, and the child that God has ALWAYS INTENDED to be yours WILL BE YOURS... I pray that child comes to heal your heart very soon.

Scott and Jessica Shobe said...

You don't know me, but I always read your blog and have been following your story. I am so sorry for you!

taramarissa said...

Hi Lauren, I also have been reading your blog after finding it on AYWH. I'm so sorry to hear this news. Please know that so many of us are with you in spirit and will continue to lift you up in prayer.

Grace in my Heart said...

Lauren, I have no words. My heart is aching with despair right along with you right now. I know saying sorry isn't even enough.

Please know I will be praying so hard for you. You are so strong and faithful- you will get through this. Many, many hugs and prayers.

iRejoice said...

Oh Lauren, my heart is heavy for you. I can't tell you how sorry I am. I will pray a rosary for your family tonight.

JennyM said...

Lauren, I am so, so sorry. We have never met, but I recently came across your blog via an IF bloggers list and have been following your process.

My husband and I just prayed our evening rosary for you. My heart aches for your shattered, broken heart. God bless you and carry you right now. Know that even though we don't know you personally we will continue to carry you and your hubby in our prayers like so many others here.

Our Mother of Sorrows, console and pray for Lauren.

doctorgianna said...

I am so sorry. You and your husband will be my mass intention this weekend.

Lori said...

Praying for you and your husband...I'm a friend of Charlotte's and can relate to you on many levels. That being said, I'm so, so very sorry for the heartache you are going through and will keep you in our prayers.

barbie said...

Oh sweetheart I'm so very sorry. Words cannot describe the pain, I feel it with you and for you. Praying for you and your husband. Peace be to you.

Anonymous said...

Lauren and Jaris, I am so sorry to hear this news. I have been praying for you and the birth parents all week. I am heart broken for you. I will continue to pray for all of you. Rachel

Anonymous said...

Lauren,

I cannot believe this is true! Our hearts are broken for you and we will continue to pray. In some way, may God offer you both consolation amidst this heart ache. May God's grace overwhelm you in (good) ways that you least expect it during this extremely painful time. Many prayers and our Mass will be offered for you both tomorrow...

Cathy

andnotbysight said...

Oh, I'm so sorry. I'll be praying for you.

hedwig said...

Lauren, I've surfed around your blog a few times, but probably haven't commented before. I wish the circumstances were happier - You, J and baby boy were in my prayers at church today, that you might experience some comfort and that this child, whom I know you already love, will have a good life. I am so sorry that you have to experience the pain of this loss.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry - my heart hurts for you. Brit's Mom

Maureen said...

so sorry. This is a pain I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. I'll pray for you at Mass today.

Estee said...

Lauren, I am so sorry. My heart is breaking for you. I am praying for peace and God's arms to wrap around you.

Brit said...

Lauren... oh my goodness... I will be offering mass up this morning for you and your husband. I am so very sorry.

Awaiting a Child of God:) said...

My heart is aching for you. I am so sorry. I will be praying for you throughout the day, especially at mass this morning.

me said...

I'm so sorry. Praying for you today.

alliemich said...

This is such sad, sad news, Lauren I am so terribly sorry for you and your husband and for the hope that was crushed when this news was broken to you.

Cathie said...

Lauren, Our hearts break for you both. Ralph and I went through this 35 years ago. Please email me when you can. cmorganphd@zingway.com

Percolating Petals said...

What?!?! I'm so sorry...will remember you in my prayers at my adoration hour this evening. :(

Joy Beyond the Cross said...

No words Lauren...just sitting here in shock and hurt. I am sorry. Please know of my prayers for you. Mary, Queen of Heaven, please intercede for Lauren and J and bring about healing and hope.

Anonymous said...

Lauren, you don't know me but I have been praying for you. I also called everyone that has a prayer chain and they are all praying for you. My heart goes out to you. May the Lord bring you some peace as you grieve and some relief. Amy W

big sky said...

Please know I prayed for you all during Mass today. My heart breaks for you.

Erin said...

My heart breaks for you. Know that you are in my prayers.

Mrs. Mike said...

Oh my. I have no words. I am so heartbroken for you. I assure you that you are being lifted up in prayer.