...today we were told about Abigail.
I will never forget the moment. My heart leapt. We were mourning the loss of Caeden Michael, when our SW delicately asked us what we thought about moving forward. My emotions bubbled over as I described our torn feelings. "Part of me says, 'Why are you still sitting there? Get out there and find us a baby!..." As I paused to continue to the other side which says "we're done", Anne interrupted with a stunned face and said,
"Are you serious?"
I continued as if I hadn't heard her- hadn't seen that look in her eyes, but I had. And my heart leapt.
We were in a whirlwind of emotions- grief and loss, but hope and joy. Could we possibly get on this roller coaster again? So soon after falling off? Was the Lord really asking us to do this AGAIN? But I kept picturing this curly haired little girl, and knew- no matter how painful it might be- we had to say yes. We had to give our fiat and try again.
Thank you, Jesus, for the courage to try again.
Thank you for our precious Abigail. She truly is more precious than gold.
14 comments:
I'm a lurker on your blog. Yours is a beautiful story of love, faith, patience, hope, and God's greatest graces! So happy you have your beautiful little girl!
I am so happy for you and your family. What a blessed little girl you have!
Such a wonderful reflection! I can't wait to see her sweet little face!
Lauren, your story is so beautiful! Reading about your courage and faith really helped open my heart to adoption. I can't wait to see Abigail!!
Yay...it's getting sooooooooo close.
Another lurker here. Loved this post! So simple, yet it spoke volumes. Blessings to your beautiful family.
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Oh, I remember those days well! I was so full of joy then, and I am so happy for you today! Abigail is such a gift! And she hit the jackpot as far as parents!!
I remember that day too! So amazed by your faith filled example of really trusting God in the most difficult times.
I am so glad He led you to this happy story of Abigail!!
What an amazing 6 months it has been!! Words cannot express my joy for you!
I remember praying so hard for your adoption loss before I opened your blog and then falling off my chair in happiness when I read the post that you were "open" to trying another adoption. The Lord is so good! And you were so brave!
I'm taking so much away on your witness. I hope that next time I'm tempted to say "No" to God after a big hurt, a little voice tells me "don't miss out on another Baby Abigail!"
Yay! Praise the Lord! :)
Courage is everything...isn't it?
And, you two have remained so faithful and committed and open to Life no wonder why you are so courageous. You inspire me to my core.
The beginning of many happy days!
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