After cruising through yesterday, I thought I was in the clear and going to be able to handle this time of waiting easily.
NOPE!!!!
We went to see M and she is in a ton of pain and hasn't slept since Wednesday- plus had the hardest physical activity of her life AND a major operation. Poor, poor thing. She was remarkably positive, but not making total sense. Baby boy was not in the room; she thought he was with the pediatrician and would be coming back any moment. He didn't. Our social worker was with us and indicated after a while that we should let her be.
We tried to peek into the nursery, but he wasn't in there. Our social worker asked the nurses when he'd be back and they said they had him back there. They talked for a bit and we were off to the side preparing ourselves to NOT see him at all. But then the head nurse announced loudly that she would be wheeling him over to the nurse at the desk because "she needed to check on him."
Then they held him up. I nearly collapsed into J's arms and started to sob. He was so beautiful and tiny. (5 lbs 13 ounces by the way) I glanced up to ask J if he could take a picture and when I looked back, they had lowered him down and were shaking their heads no and apologizing. We're not legal yet. It was that fast, and all I could do to remain standing.
(But now I'm not worried about attaching...ha ha...)
We're going to bring M and her friends some pizza. Our focus is on her right now and we're trying not to expect to see baby boy at all, but just love on her. Because of the c-section, the plan is to have the signing on Sunday. A long 48 hours from now.
This. is. so. hard. So so so so hard. Please pray for us.
P.S. I didn't notice the "more son" but loved it, too. :)
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P.S I noticed the "more son" right away but didn't want to say anything b/c I thought it was cute and I didn't want you to correct your typo. I guess I could have commented on it!
I love you, L!
And Sunday night- good grief!!
I do love you! Waiting is so hard. And taking care of yourself is so important to do right now. When we were waiting to bring our babies home from the NICU we did all the things we wouldn't get to do for awhile... see a movie, go to brunch, go out for dinner. It helps pass the time. Hang in there! Even if you are counting the minutes, they are numbered!
You saw your son!!! Ahhh!!!!
this is the hard part, but it will pass! Praying for you all!
maybe Maggie needs a new hairstyle while you are waiting? Perhaps Hannah would like to help?
Now is also a good time to paint your toenails while you have 2 free hands. :)
SO hard, and you are holding up like a champ.
Oh, I almost started crying when I read about your seeing him.
Praying for your continued strength.
find a Chruch and go sit in front of Mary and let it out, She will help you through this time. Prayers for strength for all.
Lauren,
I caught the "more son" too and thought it was such a perfect typo! Guess we know what's on your mind . . .
Hang in there Laur, this time will pass. Take morelikeaveragemom's advice and pamper yourself right now. And get some rest . . . because starting on Sunday . . . well . . . you won't get much sleep. Call me if ya feel like talking!!! I can't wait to see him!!! I'M A GRANDMA!!! WOOHOO!!!
I agree that you should take this time to do stuff you wouldn't normally even think to do. It will make the time go faster.
I can't imagine what you are feeling now. I am so glad you got to see him, and I pray you are able to hold him soon.
Praying!
Praying so hard for you! Just keep reminding yourself that the moment you have him in your arms, every agonizing second of this waiting will be completely and totally worth it!
I am so confused ... why wouldn't they even let you hold him? Or barely get a good view of him?
It doesn't matter that you aren't legally his parents yet, you could still at least meet him, right? Things like this are just so frustrating for me because there were so many hospital employees in our adoption situation who attempted to "guard" our b-mom and Lucy from us in those first 48 hours in that same way on MULTIPLE occasions but thankfully J was aware enough to tell them to stop it and that we were the baby's parents and we were to be treated as such.
I am just so sorry things are so hard. I do believe that things are still going to be okay, just hang on a few more hours!!! Prayers being said for you.
sine you already got a pedicure... Maggie is probably jealous now and needs one too! This should definitely keep your hands and your mind busy- good luck with the cat mani/pedi! Tell me what color you decided, and I'll paint Sophie to match.
typing one-handed w/baby in arms...we only JUST got her to ourselves about 2 hours ago. Our papers were signed this a.m.
OMG!!!!!!! Congratulations!!!! It's entirely and utterly awkward to be the adoptive family on the L&D unit. Not sure where our place is, how much access to ask for/expect, but Barbie is right...this part doesn't last long. Before you know it, we're both going to be with our babies in the comfort our own homes. It's just getting through this part that is just so utterly draining.
And how cool is it that we our babies were born on the exact same day and we are going through this simultaneously?! Many prayers for you!
I'm attached to him already too, haha!! Praying so hard for you guys..I pray it all goes by quickly!
He'll be yours in no time!!!!
Praying for you as you wait! I hope you can see and hold him soon. That was the perfect typo in your last post.
Nurses are instinctively protective of their patients. We went through the same thing and i am RELATED to my daughters first mom!
Hang in there, its maddening.
(AND CONGRATS TO GRANDMA! I LOVE IT!)
:)
Praying, too!!
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